Monday, October 10, 2011

Thanks :)

my IVM,
Did you read the title for this post? (: Hope u were. Well, just wanna to say, THANKS for everything. You light my day again and again. You light my dark day before. Awesome! You're the one I love. I wouldn't say that you're the last one for me, but I'm gonna say that YOU'RE the forever one for me. Oh yeahhhhhhh <3 I didn't expect that I'll loving you this much. You steal my heart. Damn. How did you do that dear? By the way, thank you again for giving me the opportunity to talk about you again.Please don't go away from me again. I REALLY LOVE YOU, TRULY LOVE.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

yeah you were right about everything girl(hopefully) . but there's a part that you are 100% wrong. let see what is right and wrong about you've saying about him(my boyfiek ♥)

i've been so in love with your man before you did and it is my mistake to let him go at the first place for a jerk named DEE. but that is not a chance for you to judge me cos you are not absolutely know who i am. you can't just me for the thing i do wrong. but i did the same to you aite? so fair enough. but now i want to know the truth that come from my heart not from my mouth. let see what we got. PAGE DOWN PLEASE . thank you .^^v

firstly about DEE,
you said that i am insulted and wrong judge you for the thing you've done months ago. yeap it is true. maybe. cos you've been so annoying in my eyes. everything that you done behind me gain my attention. and honestly, who are you? sorry but i really don't know that you are exist. don't get me wrong. what i meant is, i don't know that you're with DEE when he's flirting with me. your bad that he didn't admit you as his girl. that the things i don't know till my boy told me everything. so i am cleared now. sorry for taking him(DEE) for you hand but it's not fully my fault.

about you,
i was to be hating you so damn much cos what you and your 'sista' did behind me. pretending to be ma friend then stab me? you two wanna get close to me to reveal everything behind me right? yes it's so true. you two got me then i blame you for everything. EVERYTHING. i blame you for taking ma boy from me. but that was before you opened my eyes with your notes that you gave me. sorry seem not to be enough but at least i'm not mute after reading your notes. m not coward okay? i learn my mistakes. yes i did.

about my boyfiek ♥,
the notes that you gave me really make me piss off a bit. cos half of you'd said there was totally against the truth. i never try my best, dead try to take away your boy. i was show up again into his life to take an apology. not taking him from you. maybe my way is wrong but honestly, even i still love him so badly that time, i'll never wanna take him from you cos i can feel that he was being so seriously with you. he told me that he wanna take you as his girl to the end of his life. you is his future wife but then i don't really know what was happen to both of you. a bit jealousy attacks me even sometimes i can't control it until i mad at him . but deep inside me that maybe m the reason for the broke up love. m sooooo sorry to you if it's because of me. that time, we're never more that friend. everything he plan with you in the future, he tell me everything. m about to leaving one day then told me that nothing between you n him anymore. being honest, i totally shocked that day. i slap my face to make sure that i am in reality. yes i am. i don't know what to say cos it was so unpredictable. how can a loving couple like you two can easily to break off? i kept asking him why but he never wanna tell me and ask me to not ask about it again and saying your name. so i did cos i don't wanna let him down. may i ask? you had him in your hand but why did you didn't take a good care of it. such a waste to let him go over you after he was so in love with you. you was his world, his dreams and you that he ever wanted right? i know that i don't have right to say this but i need to make everything clear so there no more fight and revenge between us.

close up:-
last words for me for you girl and your 'sista' if you two read this, please dont force to much and being selfish. guys are really hate being force and control by a girl. just let them free and give them some space or later y'all get hurt. just let love and relationship with the flow. btw, m not meany girl n for you girl named AYU, please be mature okay? if i make a step you know what gonna happen. you'd seen alot oldy aite? so peace no war.

p/s :: to my boyfiek, you know that i love you so the very much from the start and i know you love me too. i love you from grave to mars and from hell to heaven. sincere from me, your lover. lots of love

Saturday, October 1, 2011

HOW ??

How do I tell you that I love you? How can I say that you're the only thing on my mind? We're supposed to be just friends, but for me there's so much more there. I just don't know how to tell you. Do you know how much you meant to me? Do you know that you are the first thing I think of when I wake up? And the last thing I think of when I go to bed? If you knew this would it make any difference? I have this fantasy that one day you will realize i am exist in your world . And it would make you want me as much as I want you. If you knew that I thought about you, if you knew I loved you, if you knew you were all I want, would it make you want me? Inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel like how much I miss you, and how I love you despite my broken heart, and how I need you in my life, and especially how much I want you. But those words will forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too but I'll never know.  She doesn't like you like I do, She doesn't wait all day to talk to you, or wait all night to dream about you. Yeah, You heard me right, I said It, I loved you, and not just in words. I love it when we just talk about silly thing and i can felt butterfly in my tummy when i can make you smile and cherish your day. But i hate it sometimes when you didn't take seriously what i ever said to you, how much i love you, how much you meant to me. Yea i know that you still haunted by the past but then, nothing i can say. You have right. If only my mouth was as big as my heart you'd understand what I am trying to say. I get that feeling in the pit of my stomach, but yet I blow it all off for you. I want you to be happy and if I told you this, it might complicate our lives forever. Some things are better left unspoken, and I guess loving you is one of them. Yes i am bad, annoyed you sometimes and make things into complicated ways and the most important thing is, i loved you with my imperfect ways, unspoken words to describe. Yet you will know and realize this annoying girl loved you so the very much but don't make its too late dear. Oh my God, please help me. Give me strength to face this suck feelings.

p/s :: there so much thing i wanna say and this is a part of it. i love love love you very the much dear love. forever in mine. tiktok! Zzzzzz~